When Truth Means Following Hard

My soul follows hard after You

It’s been a long time since I’ve joined a Five Minute Friday and with the way this pregnancy’s been going, I’m still not sure I’ll be able to participate regularly. But I’ve been feeling refreshed this week and ready to jump back in. So before I even start, I’ll warn you – I know I’m going over 5 minutes! :) The prompt is Truth. You can click here to read all the other posts written in this online community.

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There are so many truths I’ve confessed about myself, right here on the world wide web. Truths that make me feel uncomfortable. The way I could be perceived. The misunderstandings that are sure to come because each of us are human, and maybe even the wrong time or place to be speaking.

A couple weeks ago, I shared a trial in my life, and I let that post sit alone with no follow up. I thought I should at least share that God is so good. He’s taking care of my family, and it looks like we’re going to make it through this. Once again, tensions have been defused, a payment my husband’s been waiting for has finally come, and he got caught-up on the job which threatened HUGE fines. There’s still a lot of work to get through by the end of the year, and there’s still daily challenges to overcome, but God is being faithful – working patience, humility, and faith in our hearts.

There’s this other truth I shared a long time ago – and I never followed up on that either. Two years ago we experienced some great pain at church. The whole body suffered this. Each of us in our different ways. And it was very tempting to leave. Actually, it was much harder to stay – so many relationships feeling ruined. The cloud of confusion which hung over our future.

Once again, it may be that I’m speaking in the wrong place at the wrong time, but I’m also praying about this post, and putting it up in faith, because this subject is even more sensitive to me than anything I say about my personal life. It involves the souls of others. People I love – even if we’ve had huge disagreements.

And maybe it’s a little premature, but the freedom God has worked in my heart and the heart of my husband is more than I can even express in words. The challenge to stay when we felt so broken has taken two years to get through. In retrospect, we see how good it’s been for us to keep committed. The healing in relationships. The humbling we’ve needed. Finally, the blessings of joy reaped from obedience and forgiveness.

The Psalmist cried out it Psalm 63:8, “My soul follows hard after You.”

Hard!
Oh, it’s been hard!
Hard to obey. Hard to believe. Hard to follow. But, yes, Lord, we follow!

And by the mercy of God, the tending hand of a Good Shepherd, He has upheld us (Psalm 63:8b).

Psalm 37:3 says, “Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and feed on His faithfulness.”

Psalm 63:5, “My soul will be satisfied…and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips.”

The soul who seeks the Lord will be upheld by the Lord – even through the hard.

And this is truth. Tested. Proved.
And this is our testimony.

Comments

  1. Jacqui,
    Thank you for sharing how God’s true promises have held true in your life as you persevered, clung to Him and His promises…such a beautiful testimony to God’s faithfulness as you hung on…praying today that God continues to provide for you and your family ….hugs to you :)

  2. Becky Daye says:

    I love reading your words, Jacqui! We too went through an incredibly difficult break with our church, but God called us to leave. It was heartbreaking and I so desired resolution, but that didn’t happen. It is 2 1/2 years later and I am beginning to heal and trust again. But there are moments when I am reminded of the difficult and it leaves me a weepy mess. It is a tough road to walk, isn’t it? I love your use of scripture, because that has been the one constant for me- knowing that God’s Word will never fail me- even when His people do.
    So thankful to hear that your family is doing well. Will keep praying for you!

    • Jacqui says:

      Becky, you have been such a testimony to me – of a woman walking in obedience so gracefully. You’re right, it is a tough rough to walk and I have had to cling to the Word as well. Love you so much, friend. Blessings.

  3. Barbie says:

    God makes all things beautiful in His time. God has certainly stretched my husband and I over the last few years. But we are turning a corner and able to see the truth of His promises coming to light. Hugs!

  4. Melissa says:

    This post was just what I needed. My church home has experienced a devastating heartache this week. Back in December our Senior Pastor (who’s father founded the church over 60 years ago) passed the baton to a young Pastor in his 30′s. On Monday the very man he passed on his legacy to called for his resignation. People are heartbroken and deeply wounded. Lines have been drawn with people in both camps….those staying and those moving on with the former Senior Pastor who is starting a new church. I needed the reminder that God never fails even when his people do!

    • Jacqui says:

      Oh, Melissa, I’ll be praying for you and your church!! I know this is hard. Praying wisdom, strength, and grace. And yes, I have had to cling to that very truth – God never fails even when his people do. Blessings, friend.

  5. Leah says:

    My Pastor spoke about “hope deferred” at service this Sunday, and that hope is the hardest to keep holding onto when it involves a promise or truth God spoke to you, and then it seems not to happen. In the waiting our own doubt and the whispers of the enemy make us feeling foolish for believing what we were so sure was God’s Spirit speaking; which of course is always the most pure truth. Going through such a circumstance right now, I understand why so many Christians don’t necessarily turn their back on their faith, but rather slide it into a slightly out of reach, and not very much used drawer in their life. I know you enough that you guys have not done that. Your belief in God and His truth is still front and center, always at your fingertips. God is so pleased with you, so overjoyed, and He will pour even more blessings over you because of it.
    Cheers,
    Leah

  6. Beth says:

    Wow what a story you have! What a testimony of your faith in God! Thanks you for being vulnerable and sharing how you’re clinging to God and trusting Him! I remember Phil’s talk at Allume and that was a good reminder and I’m so glad that’s helped you through all of this! And congratulations you’re expecting! So glad to see you again and how God is working in your life!

  7. Kim B. says:

    Hi Jacqui!! I’m sure you thought I’ve dropped off the face of the earth! I haven’t, just have gotten lost in this thing called life :) Congrats on your pregnancy & I just wanted to let you know I am praying for you & your family as you continue to place your trust in God alone. May you feel His comfort & His strength in all things. Blessings!!

  8. Amen!

    I miss you and hope you are well. Thinking about you today.

  9. Missy says:

    Jacqui, seeing The Truth worked out in fear and trembling by you and your husband fills me with hope. It is a witness and a testimony to the ability of our Good God to do so much more than we can ask or imagine – and also that He does it in His good timing, not our expectancy. I’m praying that He continues to show you His trustworthiness.

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